Improvisation plays a big part in everything I do, even the more song-orientated works. It's a way of fishing for ideas: not all of the arrangements come to me at once, the bass, drums and rhythm guitar parts usually come to me during the writing process, the rest I sometimes have to improvise with myself to arrive at. Although the writing process itself may also use improvisation to develop shape, trial and error.
There are a lot of people from great bands playing on The Telescopes’ records. I’m constantly writing and when it’s ready to go down it goes down how it needs to be. If there’s a connection going on with other musicians then we work on the kind of material that suits the way we are together. It’s all about hitting that place.
"Every thread has come undone," laments Lawrie on 'Something In My Brain' and that appears to be the theme of this record. Shadows of songs flicker amongst the darkness as rationality falls apart. Occasionally they are completely lost, and occasionally Lawrie attempts to convince himself that all is well. "Everything is aware" he suggests in 'You Can't Reach What You Hunger', a song that sounds like the Mary Chain's 'Taste Of Cindy' fed gargantuan doses of nitrazepam. The irony is both amusing and terrific. Fourteen minutes of 'Handful Of Ashes' close proceedings, the Wasp synthesizer looping desolately in an increasingly hostile environment as Lawrie’s barely discernable voice offers little more than surrender. There is not much light here, but Lawrie knows its return can bring him redemption. And pouring his desolation into sound is the key to opening the door.
I was thinking about the term ‘slight return’ which is sometimes used as another word for a variation of a musical theme, 'Voodoo Chile' by Hendrix for example. For some unknown reason I was prompted to scribble down aslightreturn. Both meanings resonated, the album is a slight return to the denser moments of #4 and Taste even, but from a new perspective. And I truly believe in the healing powers of music; it can reach all the way down to the deepest darkest lows and take you to the sun and back. It can speak on many levels. I settled on As Light Return for that reason, it seemed more appropriate than keeping the duality of using the phrase in an ambiguous way.
Stone Tape Theory speculates that inanimate materials can absorb energy from living beings, an idea that was introduced by a number of 19th-century scholars and philosophers in an attempt to provide a natural explanation for supernatural phenomena. If the stones can absorb the energy of the past then their tales would be just as economic as Batailles', echoing the power and not the background noise.
The project inspired Lawrie to produce his second album of 2017 in quick time. Here he reverts to a more classical approach, with clearly discernible song structures and the use of the more familiar aspects of psychedelia: repetitive beats and banging tambourines playing over deep drones, or forlorn pianos assessing their depth. Guitars hover at the edges without asserting any authority. ‘Silent Water’ is the closest Lawrie has come to a straightforward song for many years, touching the edges of balladry, and there’s a warmth that is unusual for The Telescopes. Recorded as a solo project, Lawrie writes, composes, performs, arranges and produces all of the tracks though he was not responsible for the artwork on the album cover which some people felt did not do justice to the music it housed.
The Stone Tape vinyl cover was the label Yard Press’s aesthetic. They turned down my preferred idea, but Cold Spring used it on the CD reissue. I thought our artwork always suffered up until Third Wave. Peter Green from Double Agent has a graphics background and he taught me a lot. I guess ‘Celeste’, ‘Everso’ and ‘Kick The Wall’ were good sleeves from prior to that. The ‘Flying’ sleeve was a very similar idea to ‘Celeste’ and ‘Everso’. So many people ‘borrowed’ the logo from that EP, The Word programme was one, but quite a few bands also used it. It was a bit cheeky considering the design company sold the copyright to The Telescopes. I didn’t like that logo very much, though. It’s not that I don’t have control of our artwork, it’s more a case of being clueless about it.
Following the path of some of the tracks on Stone Tape, this collection of songs is pleasingly wordy, though the words largely hide their faces. The oppressive bottom end drones dominate, though flashes of keyboards, white noise, guitar and bass occasionally break through the morass, most impressively on 'I Know You've Got Something Inside'. At other times you have to strain your ears to dig out sounds but, as always with Lawrie, deeper investigation is invariably profitable. A sad record, at times touching, and at times worryingly familiar.
The question he faces is whether this negates his emotions. He is in love and swamped by these strange waves, "all encompassing in all they bring." They will ultimately fade, but the question becomes whether it is the very transience of love that makes it so important: the flashing lights on the surface that captivate and enthrall for however brief a moment in time, the splashes of colour that make you forget the blackness at the heart of all things. "There is no shore in this life," he convinces himself, "There is only the wave." Deep down at the roots, he knows nothing will alter, "The ground will keep on holding, holding, holding..." The unshakeable rhythms are the roots. Above them Lawrie weighs up hope against certainty; his voice sometimes virtually indistinguishable, occasionally a plaintive whisper, sometimes more.
The guitars create the waves, they leave us mesmerised and thrilled and ready to fight. They shape the beauty of the souls that are engulfed in the waves which tell them that life matters, not the certainty of a doomed existence. Love is not rooted, so fight for the moment. "Living is dreaming of living. Nothing seems how it should seem." Heavily distorted, guitars screech and buzz and flow as they wash over the inexorable beats, creating patterns that are occasionally breathtaking in their raw beauty. There's hope in their defiance as they make their mark against every background. They throw themselves against the relentless march of time and dance delicately around hypnotic calls to surrender. They hammer and shriek and whisper and entrance. There may be ultimate defeat, but it was one hell of a ride.
Time has changed the way I hear my earlier records. I'm always measuring up how close the finished song is to what I originally imagined. It's hard to stop questioning whether I am satisfied with the end result, I have to reach a compromise with myself that it's the best I could do within a given time. It's difficult because the songs are always in flux for me but a record is a fixed moment. At the time of release I am not content with any recordings. I'm a blank page at the time of release, subject to the opinion of others.
Sometimes it's unavoidable to hear your own records, that's when it surprises me. I've walked into record shops and started digging the music coming over only to realise it's The Telescopes. Occasionally I listen out of curiosity, but it's usually to put insecurities to rest, which is something that is never resolved. Sometimes the things I'm insecure about with an album are the things that endear the listener. My favourite part of the process is making the music, not so much reflecting on it, but it is necessary for an artist to be in touch with their works.
As well as the bands I was originally influenced by, lately I have been listening to Jim Reeves, John Lennon’s early solo stuff, Bobby Pickett, Lee Marvin, Howlin Wolf and The Animals. I still listen to the same stuff I did in my teens but I have picked up a lot of other stuff on the way like Sun Ra, Pharoah Sanders, Alice Coltrane, AMM, Keith Rowe, Mouse on Mars, Third Eye Foundation, Pram ... so much really.
And I’ve recently got into Wham!